first blog thing?

Ok so i guess i am going to try blogging. and i kind of hope no one finds this. Even though I know it will happen. The reason why I created a blog was because I tend to want to voice my opinion on facebook or twitter... then as writing it, I tend to delete it cause I feel like ppl will think I am a bitch. Or it is too rude, or whatever the reason may be. It varies. I never had a diary or journal, or anything that i write down my feelings on. But at this point in my life, I feel like I should. I mean, I have a tumblr, but I never use it. So I am not quite sure how long I will use this site. But lets give it a try, I suppose.

So the "defining" point of making a blog was what I was writing on FB, and i deleted. I was going to write something to the affect of, Valentines day makes me sick. I have a boyfriend, but still... this holiday (if you can even call it that) seems pointless. It just leads to false hopes. I cannot stand how a couple of like two weeks can love each other. Yes you can love each other, but you cannot be IN love with each other. It just does not make sense. I have been with my boyfriend for almost five years. And I can say that I am in love with him... without anyone questioning me. But seriously? Being in love takes a long time. Not one week, not 3 months, jeez.

I feel like I am being ridiculous right now. And I probably am... but maybe its because I am not able to be carefree, and see my significant other on this particular day. Maybe because I do not have the money to do something... even dinner. So yeah. I guess in a way I am jealous. But I feel as though those stupid ass people, who will probably not be together next year, need to grow up. Stop writing gushy things on each other's wall (put it in a private message or something). Stop posting pictures of you guys kissing. No one wants to see that. Thank you.

wow.. my first blog is very negative. I can see how this blog is going to be. lol